Wong Fu Productions.

I've been an avid fan of Wong Fu Productions (WFP) ever since they made David Choi's "Won't Even Start" music video and I just admire their down-to-earth attitude that they show on their videos. Which led me to day dream about how it would be so freaking awesome to meet them in person but I never thought they'd come to Malaysia, just because they live in LA, USA. I mean, the flight to and fro must be super long. So when I heard that they were coming to Malaysia I told myself that I wouldn't miss it for the world! I mean come on, how often do you see a youtube celebrity in Malaysia right? :)

So I decided to buy their VIP tickets in the hope of getting picked as one of the 20 lucky draws to have brunch with them but unfortunately, there was a mixed up with the numbers and I got rejected. :(

Honestly, I didn't feel satisfied with the whole event. Firstly, isn't VIP ticket holders suppose to get some kind of advantage over general admission ticket holders? Then why is the ratio of VIP to GA like 65165161: 1. GAH SO PISSED SO VERY VERY PISSED! Maybe I'm just PMS-ing right now but I've been wanting to talk to WFP personally all my life; not just watching them talk! By the time I went inside the auditorium the middle seats were all full and only the side ones were left. :( which nobody notices. SIGHHHHH. I mean watching them talk on stage didn't make a difference as when I watch them on youtube. Urgh, what a waste of money! What's more the meet and greet was so freaking brief. They didn't even let us take pictures with them. At least do something for the VIP ticket holders lah. Ish! @$%!#$%@#$^@

OKlah, whatever. Too emo to post anything happy right now. :/

It's a blue blue day.

I feel so lonely nowadays, especially where all my friends are all over the world. :'( I miss talking to people without being judged. heck, I just miss chit chatting like a normal kid. I miss loads of stuff, like secondary one during recess when me, jess and Iri would (have to) walk to and fro at the dataran merdeka just talking nonsense. I hate that everything had to change when we were split into different classes. Everyone else found their group to click in and I'm just, everywhere. I'm trying to be optimistic and stuff, but still it hurts to know that you have no one to talk to. I talk to Him and try to not think so much, but the feeling keeps coming back. He's the only one I can rely on to spill my feelings and cry to cause sometimes friends might be busy with their own problems. :''''(

Faulty Change Plan # 5 James MacDonald, Senior Pastor of Harvest Bible Chapel

¹⁵I do not understand my actions. For I do what I do not want, but I do the very thing that I hate.¹⁶Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. ¹⁷So no it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. ¹⁸For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. - Romans 7:15-18

Another faulty method that has promised to bring about change among Christians we call monasticism. Monastic comes from the Greek word, monos, which meansto be alone. The early monks actually lived alone in the desert. The first monastic community was St. Anthony of Thebes in 271 A.D. Monks practiced three main things: work, prayer, and meditation. The goal of being a Monastic was true holiness by complete suppression of the will or the flesh. Very popular during the Middles Ages, thousands of monasteries around Europe housed men or women who took three vows: a vow of poverty, I will own nothing, a vow of chastity, I will abstain from all sexuality, and a vow of obedience, 100% submission to authority.It was a very difficult life. And it failed to bring about the kind of basic change that each of us needs.

You (and I) do not have the ability to live the Christian life. God has made no provision for you to live the Christian life apart from Him. Christianity is not trying harder or doing more. Christianity is an intimate, personal relationship with Jesus Christ who is alive and lives His life by His Spirit through you. Christianity is the Holy Spirit living in us.

“I don’t know what to do.” The Spirit convicts me of right and wrong.

“I don’t know what to say.” The Spirit convicts me what to say.

“I don’t know how to handle this.” The Spirit helps me with my infirmities because I know not how to do what I ought.

Monastic change tries to use human employed spiritual techniques to suppress the flesh: “I won’t do it! I won’t do it!” And here’s the reason why that doesn’t work. If you’ve ever failed in a diet—I certainly have done that—you know the tendency. You try and try to do the right thing. But when (not if) you fail, you do the wrong thing on steroids. Even the classic spiritual disciplines like Bible study, prayer, and fasting, have no power to bring about necessary change unless they are empowered by the Holy Spirit.

I don’t have the power to change myself. That’s monastic change—it doesn’t work. Put that in a bag and take it to the street.

Journal:

• What are the differences between the disciplines of the Christian life undertaken as a personal effort and undertaken under the power of the Holy Spirit?
• Where have I experienced this difference in my relationship with Christ?

Prayer: Father, I need to be reminded over and over again that growing as a believer doesn’t ever mean I outgrow my need for You to empower, guide, and sustain my life as a Christian. Thank You for Your faithfulness not only to help me see what needs to be changed but then applying Your power to bring about that change in me. I count on that life-changing power in Jesus’ name, Amen.

You make the world go round.

I wanna know you more. I wanna know what's on your mind. I wanna know you inside and out. I wanna know what it feels like to be close to you, to share your thoughts and desires, to know your plans for me. I wanna know how great a God you are. How awesome and wonderful you are and how you work in unimaginable ways! I wanna know you, Lord. Give me a bigger servant heart so that I may serve you with ALL of my heart, mind and strength. Teach me what it means to surrender my life to you 'cause the world CANNOT and WILL NOT satisfy my needs and desires in me. Teach me to take joy in whatever I do for You. I want You. <3

I'm a Lazy Bum. #2

Blehhhhh. I feel like such a pig nowadays. Every morning I get up, have breakkie, watch tele, go online, watch more TV and doze off in front of it. Tell me, it sounds to me like I'm such a potato couch. I'm so lazy to even start my OBU project. GGARAHGA!#@@#$#%

I've been Facebook-ing and Youtubing so much it's getting boring. Gosh, I need to get a life ASAP. Seriously, I think I'm going insane just staying at home doing...nothing. :S

Nothing to blog about d la. BYE. Teehee.

Long or Short. That is the question.

ARGHHHHH. I'm in a dilemma now. My hair is at that stage where it's neither long nor short and I don't know what to do with it! Short, pixie haircuts are the craze right now. Heck, some girls even go to the extent and shave half of the head bald! I have felt like going fully bald but I'm scared of what my hair will look like when it starts to grow. D: HELP MEEEE. I kinda miss my flowy long hair too. Oh and should I get bangs? :D o.m.g.... anyone with some helpful suggestions?

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James MacDonald - Pointless Pursuits.

¹⁷ So I hated life, because what is done under the sun was grievous to me, for all is vanity and a striving after wind. ¹⁸ I hated all my toil in which I toil under the sun, seeing that I must leave it to the man who will come after me, ¹⁹ and who knows whether he will be wise or a fool? Yet he will be master of all for which I toiled and used my wisdom under the sun. This also is vanity . . . ²⁴ There is nothing better for a person than that he should eat and drink and find enjoyment in his toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God, ²⁵ for apart from him who can eat or who can have enjoyment? —Ecclesiastes 2:17-19, 24-25

God has made you in such a way that you have a longing for fulfillment common to every person in your family tree past or future (see Ecclesiastes 3:11). The most basic thing that we’re all “endowed with by our Creator” is “eternity in their hearts.” Every discussion of the nature of man or meaning or ministry must begin with this reality. Humans are unique among the living in that there is at the core of all of us a hunger for something that the experiences of this planet cannot satisfy.

If ever there was a human being who strolled down every avenue of potential satisfaction without finding it, that man was Solomon. From alcohol to sex with a different woman every day, Solomon explored all conceivable iterations of lifestyles of the rich and famous. From musical creativity to maximum opulence to palaces and rolling estates that run to the horizon, he had the means to do it all—and he did.

Yet his tears of frustration are easily heard in his words. He had it all but he said: "So I hated life, because what is done under the sun was grievous to me, for all is vanity. . ." (Ecclesiastes 2:17). Vanity means emptiness. He confessed: “I experienced everything that's possible, and it was worthless to me. Vanity and striving after the wind.”

Solomon discovered what so many fail to conclude: history is a repetitive loop of personal and societal futility. Everything is ultimately empty, and human experience is much more common than diverse, more universal than unique. We are all the same. And Solomon rightly concludes that fulfillment must come from a source outside of ourselves: "There is nothing better for a person than that he should eat and drink and find enjoyment in his toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God" (Ecclesiastes 2:24).

God made things this way. It's in your DNA. God himself made you in such a way that you can never find satisfaction in anything in this world. His point is so clear and compelling. Any discussion of meaning in life must be based on the understanding that God designed us and He included in our make-up a longing for Him.

Journal

• What are some of the ways that I know I experience a deep longing for God?
• In what ways have I struggled with the temptation to meet my desire for God with lesser things of this world?

Prayer

Thank You Father, for giving me the desire for You long before I realized that I was desiring You! Thank You for keeping me even when I was missing, avoiding, and ignorant of Your love and grace. And thank You for filling that void in my life with the only thing that could meet my deepest need—Yourself. In Jesus’ name, who made this possible, Amen!

Who made you King of Anything?? HUH?

Lol. :D Am currently stuck on this song:

Heeeeeee. :D

Yes, I'm like every other girl who likes taking photos of themselves and edit them. :P

Everyone's Leaving. :'(

I'm extremely happy but also sad that everyone's pursuing to further their studies overseas. I mean I already seldom spend time with them because we're in different colleges/Unis and now it's like I won't be bumping into them here in Malaysia anymore. I feel like crying. :'( Anyways, all the best to those who are leaving. You will definitely be missed. Even though we seldom keep in touch nowadays, you guys will always be remembered. Just don't pretend you don't know me anymore when you come back k. Haha. You guys are in for a whole new experience and adventure and there are lots more exciting times ahead for you! Weeeeeee. :D So go and touch the lives of the people you meet at wherever you are 'cause God has great plans for you. MUACKS! XOXO.

Yellowwwwwww.

I know I haven't been exactly updating about my life but that's because there's nothing much happening aside from tests, and more tests. :/ First of all, PT1 was horrible! I admit I didn't put much effort into it but I thank God for His favour upon me and led me to read questions that came out for the test. :DD But I still think I didn't do that well cause I didn't read the quetions in detail. T.T Urghhh.

Actually there's loads of things going on in my mind but I just don't have the time to type them all here cause look at the time; it's 12.20am already. I was so dead tired from the tests that I slept straight away after college. So I shall postpone my thoughts for another day. Till then, have a great day.

P/S: I wish I had longer holidays! I see my friends enjoying life while I'm stuck here with my books. Booooo. :(

Alice.

The Mad Hatter: [to Alice] You used to be much more..."muchier." You've lost your muchness.

Just like Alice, I feel like I've lost my muchness. Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God's place in your hearts. - 1 John 5:21"

"Come Home Running" - by Chris Tomlin

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, daughter and son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Butterflies in my tummy. (WHY THE HELL AM I SO FREE TO BLOG?!)

OK, I promise to make this short 'cause I know I'm suppose to be studying but I can't. :P So, here goes : I CANNOT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO BE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR. THE HOLIDAYS ARE CALLING OUT TO ME!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Lol. OK, BYE. :D

FAATTTSSSS.

Anyone who knows me and hasn't seen me in ages would agree that I've put on weight and it's all because of exams!! Darn you, love letters, cheese chocolate cakes, etc. Sigh, fat wasn't even in my dictionary until I was 16 and realized that one uncle said he's happy (!!!!!) that I've got fats on my arms. :( Oh wells, gotta get back to studying and chomp down on more snacks. HEH. (gosh, am feeling so guilty just typing that down. ) OK BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Beep.

Sometimes, I need to be reminded over and over again that this life I'm living is not about me. That's why I like reading this girl's blog that I found. http://www.janielle7unique.blogspot.com/

I like how she's so matured in her spiritual life and that she has that strong relationship for her to have an insight like that. God's really using her to help open my eyes. Thanks God.

Oh and I was doing my devotion the other day and it had short phrases in them. One of it was ,"God doesn't smooth out all of life's bumpy terrain, but He does lead us over it."

Imagine you and your friends in a remote tropical resort and suddenly there was a power failure. Everthing is dark around you, and you don't have a flashlight or handphones or anything that can shine light. Then the manager of the hotel orders you guys to trust him to lead you to safety knowing that there maybe wild animals around.

He's familiar with the surroundings and tells you guys to trust him. And eventually you guys arrived to another resort. The guide didn't get rid of all the thick jungle foliage. Nor did he rid the area of wild animals and poisonous spiders and snakes. But he did make sure he led you and your friends to the destination.

Well, Jesus is that guide. He doesn't give us the gift of a danger-free, obstacle-free life. Instead, He gives us the gift of himself. He promises to serve as our guide on everystep of life's journey.

Phew, I actually typed all that out from my devotional book. Haha. Thought I'd like to share it with my readers, whoever's left reading that is. Haha. :D

One of the posters in my church. So meaningful. :)

God:"I miss your voice..it's hard to have a one-sided conversation"

Alrights, gotta get going now. Goodnight!

'Tis a season to be jolly.

Today is a very happy day especially for two very special people. You know who you are. ;) Hehe. Anywaysss, for the first time in a very long time, it rained today!!! Like finally. Weeee. It's been so hot these past few days that made it hard for me to study. And some smart Alec decides to make the weather worse by open burning and polluting the air. SHEESH. Oh well, thank God for the rain. :) I watched Thor today with mumsie. It was OK, but I felt like it was very simple. Too much of fighting and stuff and by the end of the movie, I was like mehhh. The trailer looked awesome and I had high hopes for it but to my disappointment, it wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be. But Chris Hemsworth's (Thor) body was oh so HOT!! *sizzles* Those abs and muscles...*faints. Haha. And Natalie Portman's really pretty too. I like her eyes. :)

Alrights, I really don't know what to blog anymore because I'm so dead tired and I'm only blogging for the sake of keeping my blog alive. Haha. Till then, goodbye peeps. :)

My poor little eyes.

Sooo.. I was doing my stalking activity as usual right and I clicked on a picture out of curiosity and BAM. my eyes were polluted. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Paperbag me.

So, I just sat for my Progress Test Special for Law and F5 today. One word : AWFUL! for F5 at least. Law wasn't that bad but I'm not sure whether I'll get 50 and above or not 'cause my answers weren't that good. Oh wells. I wanted to write about how I humiliated myself today when I sat for F5 paper. I was so SO sleepy that when the person who came to take attendance reached my place, I suddenly terkejut and was like, "SORRY?" He asked me to take out my student card. Apparently, my friend told me I said it so loud it was embarrassing. Hahaha. Shucks, I have to wear a paper bag to college d. :(( Lol. Anywaysssss, I'm sure I won't get above 30% this time for F5 cause I totally flunked it. I couldn't answer about 70% of the paper lah, how to pass? Thank God there isn't any consequence if I fail this Progress Test Special. Hehe. :DD On second thoughts, I shouldn't even have sat for that paper.

So, to distress, my classmates and I went to IPC (Ikano Power Centre) for meatballs!!!! YAY. It was so awesome. Never ate meatballs with jam before. Yums! :) I just realised I'm very greedy of food nowadays. NOT GOOD. I'm growing fat day by day. :( Anyway, after dinner we went to watch "Rango". It was a really good movie and I would recommend it to anyone. I found myself laughing the entire time. :)

So yeah, that's all lah. Nothing much happened so far except for tests and tests and MORE tests. Sigh. Goodnight peeps. :)

S.O.S.

SOMEONE PLEASE TIE ME ON THE CHAIR 'CAUSE I CAN'T SIT STILL AND STUDYYY. THIS SUCKS. :(

GUESS WHO'S BACK?..

..BACK AGAIN, ANGEL'S BACK, BACK AGAIN.

Hahahah. It's a song I you can't tell. Anyways, guess what? I PASSED MY CAT!!! WOOHOOO. Now I don't have to worry about it anymore. :D Thank You, Jesus for answering my prayers and thank You for Your amazing grace. I knew I couldn't have pass if You didn't help me. If you asked my parents, they can tell you that they seldom see me studying at home. I AM TELLING THE TRUTH. So that's why I'm so grateful to God for giving me a second chance. Before taking my results, a voice was telling me that it's for my own good if I don't pass. Because if I pass, I will continue studying last minute and taking God for granted. Sigh, which is sort of true. BUT I'm not letting that happen in my ACCA. :D Which reminds me, I have Progress Test 1 (PT 1) next week so I havta bring my butt to my books now. Tata and God bless. Have a nice day peeps. :)